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My stomach feels terrible. I can't tell if I have swine flu or if chemo just makes me feel like butt some months.In housing news, Mike, Maren and Krista are moving out at the end of the month. Ed is...
View ArticleSexy sex
My tracking software has recently informed me that when you do a google search of "sexy topics" my blog comes up second. Hot. Hot. Hot.And of course I still win when you google "the world will end...
View ArticleToxic time
I have a cold. Not the same cold I had in Pittsburgh--a different cold. This one is more about sore throat, coughing, and a sinus infection. It is crappier than the last cold. I only bring it up...
View ArticleToo late for Swine Flu jokes?
Week from Hell, round 1=over. Week from Hell, round 2=nagging at the back of my mind and causing anxiety. It is now the weekend. I just awoke from a 5 hour, klonopin induced nap on a Saturday...
View ArticleBe proud
I am still sick--beginning to think I have bronchitis. At 4am this morning I gave in and self prescribed 20 mg of prednisone to bring down the swelling in my throat and hopefully the irritation in my...
View ArticleYeah!
Happy Pride! Today I went to the parade (sorry no terrible pictures) and like every year it was very emotional. There are always a few times when I just want to burst into tears because I feel so......
View ArticleDo over
Today I tried really hard all day to be in a good mood. I was like, "DAMMIT JESSIE HOW DO YOU EXPECT GOOD THINGS TO COME INTO YOUR LIFE IF YOU AREN'T HAPPY AND GRATEFUL??? BE HAPPY, DAMMIT."As you can...
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crazy amped, yo
Oh Prednisone. Don't tell Dr K, but I've been cheating... I hate taking you in your full dosage and often I'll skip a day or take a smaller than prescribed dose. I know it's bad so this morning I gave...
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Life so far
I have now been in Berkeley for almost an entire continuous week. It feels like 10 weeks.Classes: are good! I don't have any previous experience in any of the areas we're studying (politics, econ,...
View ArticleMmmm Koolaid
Today my copy of Snow Leopard showed up in the mail! Shiny! New! Operating system!But back to what everyone likes to read about: CANCER!!!Last Tuesday I was in a FOUL mood because for the first time in...
View Articleoh, yeah one more thing
I forgot to mention that not only am I totally into ME being alive, I am also totally supportive and into my many friends who have endured long, crazy, painful journeys as they fight for their lives....
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Treatment in Berkeley: a Rant
I had my first chemo infusion at Alta Bates on Friday. It was terrible. The whole thing took over 3 hours which is absolutely fucking ridiculous when you consider that even if you push the Vincristine...
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small milestones
You're darn right today is the one year anniversary of finishing up intensive treatment! That means that for the last year my body has mostly been allowed to heal! Let's celebrate!9/14/08:9/14/09:The...
View ArticleStill here
Briefly: #1) Tyra Banks on Gossip Girl. Glorious. Over acting, wigs, wig changes. Hilary Duff. Who knew. Lizzie McGuire infinitely more suited for Dan than Harriet the Spy.#2) American Splendor. I...
View ArticleFiring your chemo team?
I don't know what to do.I went to Alta Bates yesterday for my 5th to last Vincristine infusion. After 5 attempts they gave up on starting an IV and sent me home. I'll try again on Tuesday. However, I...
View ArticleWhen you're in hell, just keep going
Dramatic, much? That's some advice my crazy pants ex boyfriend gave me in college. God love him, that was one of the wisest, most obnoxious things he ever said.Tuesday I went back to Alta Bates for...
View ArticleOver it
Ugggghhh. It's midterms this week. I know I've been really spotty about updating and when I do it's kind of lame and obvious that I'm just avoiding doing homework and not here to share anything...
View ArticleSwedish Cancer Institute: the best place in the WHOLE world
15 down, 2 to go!!!!Yesterday I flew up to Seattle for the day. The whole day was absolutely wonderful. It started with Julian and I at Pho Hai Yen for some rockin Rainier Valley pho and a tour of...
View ArticleRefreshingly Type A
It has been an emotionally complicated week, friends. Goddamn, prednisone, you make me insane.Wednesday I came off (as scheduled) but for some reason I had a particularly brutal resurgence of post-roid...
View ArticleT-giving, philosophized
Kairol and the Thankgiving holiday have inspired me to try and put words to some thoughts that have been bouncing around and changing for the last two years: am I thankful for cancer?For the longest...
View ArticleEl Fin
Sorry to keep y'all waiting. It's over. I'm done. Final chemo is over. Final scans are clear. Final bone marrow aspiration is "clean as a whistle."This is joyous news. It's hard to know what to say:...
View ArticleTwo Years
A bunch of you probably got this in email form so feel free to skip. For all my loving lurkers and other internetz budz, you are part of my gratitude:Friends and Family:I’ve been struggling to compose...
View ArticleUGH!
Dude, fuck this Insurance bullshit. My COBRA was rasied to $575 this year. It kind of f-ed up my very lean grad school budget. The raise was a $100/month increase which in no way reflects real...
View ArticleUpdate, Schmupdate
Are y'all still out there? I know it seems like I have given up the blog in light of the chemo thing being over, but it's more like I am just trying to keep my head above water here at school. Things...
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Happy
On June 30th Bobby and I left work early and went to City Hall in San Francisco... where we got married. We are still planning a wedding, but there are some things that need to happen first... like me...
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